Hardcore?

Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough.

It’s about acceptance.

Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard.

In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely.
- Meredith, Grey's Anatomy



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i do choose my moments wisely...for crying bouts...pangs of loneliness..paranoia attacks.

i do want to be hardcore. strong. impervious.

somtimes i am...sometimes i am not.

sometimes i feel damaged still....other times i feel more or less healed.

i wish i could just control my thoughts....and therefore control my emotions.

i remember what you told me during the first month that we were together...when the mind and the heart do not contradict each other, that is when you know it's real.

the first and last time this happened to me....was when i fell in love with you.

hardcore or not, it's about accepting the fact that i was wrong that i was done then....that it was you.

letting go is so hard when you are still in love with the person.

then again, time is all i have at the moment.

more please. more time.