are you there still?

i sometimes wonder what it would be like if i could still talk to you.

if i could still ask for your advice...

i miss your long explanations...your logic...your calmness.

you gave me peace of mind.

something that happens only rarely.

i want to tell you so many things....i want to tell you that i have changed a lot for the better...that i am doing the things that you wanted me to do.

are you proud of me?

i miss you.