God's Plan

the bible passage that i took for granted while i was growing up but actually saved my life last month..

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
~ Jeremiah 29:11

Woman in the Mirror

when i look in the mirror, i see a woman who is bruised inside. i see the reflection of a stranger...with an expressionless face and eyes tentatively looking back at me. i can fathom a person who is trying her best to be preoccupied with work to bury her grief.

people like this woman in the mirror. they see her beauty...her brains...her fire.

men desire her. women want to be her.

but why?

who is she?

one of these days...i will appreciate what other people see in her that i had stopped seeing. someday soon, i will get to know her again and feel that the woman in the mirror is really me...

Endless Possibilities

From the cute guy wearing a dark gray bonnet who shared his umbrella with me one stormy day and walked me all the way to the office..... to the equally hot guy who cornered me in the pantry and coerced the guards at work to give me his number...

a whole new realm is opening up to me day by day.

when it rains....it pours.

i like the rain these days. it makes me feel alive.

you see, anything is possible even when it's raining...

When Lightning Strikes..

it is like a bolt of lightning.

jolting every nerve in my body....leaving me reeling in disbelief.

it's over.

you're gone.

here i am trying to break old habits tinged with memories of you and discovering new things untouched by your presence....

when it suddenly hits me.

i have a new life now....and you are NOT a part of it anymore.

this bolt of lightning typically happens on most days...especially when it's pouring....when i can hear the tip-tapping of the rain outside.

and you know what breaks my heart each time "lightning strikes"?

it's the thought that the love we shared together will soon be forgotten...

that the love i thought was going to last will eventually get lost in the sands of time...

Another Lifetime

today was my first day.

new job. new faces. new sights. new responsibilities.

new everything.

it was so overwhelming, almost dreamlike.

i couldn't help remembering my life two months ago...

i yearned for the time when the things around me were familiar...comforting..easy.

i longed for my life with you then.

but i realized that it was a lifetime ago....the "then and there".

i am faced with the "here and now"....and no matter how uncertain it is...

i would rather live in this lifetime and face the unknown than to be stuck in a dead-end relationship in another life..